Brahma_Yoga_F-Meaning_Part_8 2/2011. (The) English people and Italian
people understand most of the words of the other's
language as Italian is sort of like 90% (of) English (if
one does not choose English then it partly seems Italian
is the next on the list as it has that global connection,
it being about people and numbers - there are bigger
languages than Italian, though while bigger is not
necessarily better as it can be too much/many but the
bigger the number the more and generally better
everything it offers though more or less of that will
spread to the small also), though mostly the other sort
of 10% is used, though there is often a non-English
looking word too that means the same as the English
looking word and one needs to understand them too, but
the easiest is to use (the) English looking words, other
than that it's easier to learn Italian first if one is
going to learn both as all one sort of needs to do is to
kick the last vowel off and pervert its pronunciation and
one has English (perverts as written and even the
pronunciation is from some parts under a doubt and in
case that drops then English shakes, but e.g. salora, see
the -a as useless, and see the salor (as) better, also as
"seilö!?" [= sailor, (sailxr, sailar, sailer,
er=ö?). One could also dance after the
"seilö" about the whole great new finding,
it's being cool] but then see salora as pretty and clear.
A related personality would
additionally get delights of(f/from; off from)
Italian (one could be in awe of the beauty as
discovered with some Italian or a similar word -
salora doesn't figure to be an Italian word - and be
up to ecstatic [ex-static?!] and then there is the
possibility to find the opposite and up to hate it
and be able to tell why as facts) or English and in
cases (from/)of both, or/and up to hate up to both,
e.g. British (the very official) English might be too
much for/to many while Italian being too childish,
rigid, non-cool or/and so, though Italian is
generally liked more than English, that people
generally more or less hate as it's written.
Additionally, likings and dislikings might also be
personality problems. Also, there is a trick that
when one likes something, one starts to dislike
something else,
Additionally, when one
discards something, it can start to look better,
like when moving, leaving, golden memories,
though it's just the opposite of it just having
been disliked. That's the counter argument too -
happening when one has turned away.
While when living in the
moment, when relatively good it feels golden,
while the past and even the future might not feel
golden anymore as I see the pains in the past and
what it will have to face in the future, in spite
of good things in the past I see those pains
instead and the past for me is mainly about what
one has been able to achieve, and the future,
when not seen as golden, I see it just as still
better, but not a paradise as life is not easy
and there is the daily work and this planet
that's not so good. This moment is the only place
where I am alive, but that view is connected to
the x-personality, the state of balance and other
things, and is no truth as a whole, but as how
one can see it, as one can see it in other ways
and other things when the x-thing is standing in
some other ways.
and one can make it the
opposite too and continue like that. Also (the)
fashion changes, one's personal too, and it changes
with e.g. any new facts or so - it can or will do
that back also - and it's not that one has all the
facts about something, so no possibility to pick the
right one until one knows enough or needs it so. Then
there is the general bliss (and the opposite and any)
phenomenon(s) turning more or less nirvanic as time
goes, it being about the new, old, whole, balance -
the last I am trying to use to unload the deep right
as when in balance the system might have no reason to
unload anything, though the view might be rather
unorthodox and it's related to resting additionally,
and when not in balance - rather than in balance with
no x-loading - it's possible the system is working
only with that problem and no healing happens, though
the problem here is the right load (that comes here
back as memory and in theory causes damage, and it
does come back and without the cooler balance of the
left/body action, and so the body gets loaded
similalary with that "ex"-load or the
current but without a cooler balance). But only the
x-time and not the unload factor might be the only
Xmemory load factor. Additional possibility is that
to heal the left problem on the body - or more - one
could try to be loaded on the right; and to heal a
right problem on the body or more, one might load the
left and then with an x-time factor long enough, the
system gets damaged to the opposite direction,
healing the problem or at least the body or it gets
balanced as double damaged, or/and double loaded but
the opposite (like the L6 work memory, more so on the
computer, on the balance level balances the R2,
thinking, logic, the system adjusting so, at least
with the NT's; the ST's can be on the right and the
NF's on the left, or more so, though the Ni/Te tends
to be more on the right and the Ne/Ti more on the
left as non-visual vs. visual).
If one is going to learn more
languages, the third can be Spanish (or French), that's
possibly 10-20% Italian, a very different language (the
known comparisons to Latin bases are some theoretical
ones as in practice they usually more or less are not
there, other than as grammar and maybe letters) and
finally learn French, that would be the hard way to go to
learn first as from Italian/Spanish one can learn f/m and
if it's the same or different in French, it helping as
there is about no rules for that in French (though maybe
one could pervert French by adding some end stuffs, e.g.
it seems like in English that the -e is the end vowel or
there sort of is none, and the -e to me seems to more
often be an f, and the rest could be an m, like in
Italian. The exception words like man and woman), and one
has learned lots of similar words already, that too
helping, and French's double vowels and stuff like that
are there in English too in a way - in French they tend
to be logical, though it's like taking an Italian word
and putting there several sort of random letters, just
for nothing, and then they pronounce sort of every third
letter through their nose, something similar to Spanish
and English that are often spoken with something in the
mouth like eating at the same time (and the French nose
sounds seem to have been made more or less ö's, ä's in
English, the idea in both cases being something messy to
what seems like the round-the-word, and in Italian they
partly don't round and partly they have the softening end
vowel and they make the vowels longer; e.g. anchor
[änkö, where the ö rounds and the ä - that's a in
English - could be an ö too and similarly in French it
would be a nose sound, and the last one or so would be a
nose sound] vs. Italian a:ncora [anchor], and anco:ra
[still (yet, again)], there being some trick in all these
languages rather than it being something straight like
aankora and ankoora like it's in Finnish - also about
(the) long vowels - the end vowel in Finnish is usual but
it seem more or less balanced with the n and t ends,
while in Italian it might be too soft and homogeneous as
a written form. 50-50 split just might be too hard, maybe
ugly, as it looks like at least, as sharp), and Spanish
has some nasty sounds (and English rather messy and
strange ones), that's the reason it's horrible (German is
not horrible but it's not nice enough though some
sound(s) are nicely 'feminine' like in Italian, and in
Swedish - that used to be my other mother tongue but I
forgot it when I was six or seven. German has sort of no
similarity to Latin) but it's the second largest language
in the world, sort of, and pretty logical, just needing
some cleaning, though even then the words are not as
correct as in Italian (correct is a thing of reality, and
always correlates to beauty, not just a random collection
of letters), and so there's not much point in cleaning
when they could simply throw it in the garbage, like they
actually have done in Spain already, and take Italian
instead, that's actually an improved version of Spanish,
from where Italian sort of originates. While French might
be from Latin, and some drunk smoker formed French
from/of/off it, then it was cleaned to the level of
Spanish. People bother about all kinds of boloney as
languages as it fits their globality or personality
(outer and likely the inner); then those languages must
be improved, though I think also (the) people need to be
improved though the language might remain but they can
see it needs improvements. I think everyone to who(m)
language matters enough need the knowledge English can
give, and if one is going to do any travel(l)ing. It
would be a time for having two mother tongues, the other
being the current global one, and it seems having two
mother tongues is no problem. All but English mothers
could start to use English more or less like it's
pronounced,
And also the opposite
perhaps, though one could then just pick Italian and
make it more simple e.g. parlare will become parla -
that's anyway how one maybe better view and learn and
up to use the verbs in Italian - and they could start
to use words like will and would so that one does not
need to break words in Italian to see what they
contain - English starts from that, e.g. I will do,
it being the broken form of dowillI - that's Italian
- without it means nothing.
I["ai"](o["i:o"]) rest(a)(re).
Will that really sound worse, I don't know but in
English they don't say he rest, but still, how can it
be so different between e.g. noi (we; 4) and voi
(you; 5)? In case there is no difference(,) then it's
optional and should also sound fine, though maybe not
when no one else is using it so, though to me to say
the 4 and 5 so differently does sound like going too
far when it could and should be more simple, and it
just being optional like he speak vs. speaks. That
third form could be it, the base, e.g. in Finnish
it's (I think) puhuu (parla, speaks), though the main
word is puhua (parlare, [to] speak) and in Finnish it
might be better on average, e.g. minä aikoa/aikoo
puhua - a double verb perhaps, minä en puhua, minä
mennä/menee juoksee - a double verb sort of like in
Italian, and similarly or so two or so forms could be
used. Minä ei (mennä - fare [do] etc. possible
helping verb) juoksee/juosta, minä en/me ei/ne
haluta/haluu/ juosta/juoksee/puhuu/a. I think Italian
is prettier with parlo, parli, parla, though the
parliamo, parlate might be a bit lot, though so are
the Finnish, me puhumme, te puhutte, but there are
the me and te, though I am not sure of it as being
current Finnish as it has somewhat changed during the
last 20+ years, and me puhuu/puhua looks much the
same as puhumme, just that the latter might sort of
round it additionally, making it more clear at the
end too.
and then the mothers would have
to follow. Not that it's even then all pretty(,) but
would do as (the) second language. But as it is, even if
I would recover enough to go in the UK, just the language
factor can make me not to go (I am already rating not to
recover enough to go in Italy, and I likely will stay in
Finland, and that's it about English forever). f/m, maybe
that's pretty existential, but not really logical but
with words like man, woman when it's done with the same
word, e.g. mano being man and mana a woman, though not
sure if the articles should be used at all, and the last
letter already is a sort of such. And the adjectives, do
they really need to connect to the main word with the f/m
last vowel? (A/The) language is important also, as it
sounds (like), and maybe has variety. (The) logic alone
is limited to what it can reach, see, understand; it's
often not enough to just 'think' about things as one is
often lacking information.
Maybe I should keep the lights
more down when I start to speed up too much, and put them
more up only when I go more on the depressing side
(putting up music etc. figures to help in both cases,
them having also something else there but themselves),
but be fast to put them down again. Sun is possibly not
that bad as the daylight tends to sort of slow one down.
I have these speeding problems especially at (the) times
(that) I have unloaded much the left side but the right
(plus its habit) is still not at the same level. Though
the daylight also can do good (light might balance the
left, especially the L6, but also the Sensoric and larger
outer and inner world is then more there), and of course
aiming to balance that right by unloading (plus a new
habit).
Without meaning, it's rather
meaningless to live, and I don't see a meaning in English
for me. And as the recovery has so far failed, and the
lack of peace adding to it, I don't get any meaning in
Italy either, other than for the future life as a view.
And the meaning in Finland, it's basically just about
recovery, and in case I am not getting that, year after
year the same thing, there's not much meaning to it
either. The recovery being the meaning of life and that's
about it as when recovered, one has (a) life, and all
life before that is just trying to achieve that life.
As unloaded, I am in like 'S,'
Sensor, and there is no flying nor related delights, as
the S (usually) is just here and that's all. It doesn't
see the delights of Italian nor Italy, and actually
prefers the UK, South England, London fine, while Finland
(possibly even e.g. Manchester) feel "colder"
options, though one reason the S here prefers the UK over
Italy is that it doesn't in my case prefer the hotter and
sunnier Italy, and partly feels the economical state of
the UK better, and this S is not an EP type of a
ST-flying type either, that would have no problems
picking Italy though it wouldn't care much of what. This
other 'S' had the roots more in the nf, comfortably so,
though it's the heart really, somewhere on the lines of
INFP, though things can change fast, also in the nature
of this S, again. It's an S-feel pick, not having any
reason over that, but just where it feel most to be at,
though it has no interests, hobbies, doings other than
just living, working and being, though it's also
connected to my recovery aims, but as a persona, that's
all it needs and wants, and Italy and Italian would be
over its horizon, and it does like that cooler thing, but
not something as bad as the Finnish winter half, and
there might be something as a bigger place also for it as
even Helsinki (0.5M + 0.5M) seems a pretty small place
for it, and connected to the rest of the country, seems a
bit small, like living in a place that has nothing
really, even when it's that big, though this persona
could be just okay in a small 0.2M place perhaps, in some
other place than Finland, that just feels small and so
lacking in aspects related, though this S is not really
going after more people but (at least as center living)
after more numbers, things, and I suppose it just doesn't
like the winter half here. But all that is about the
feelings of places and trying to see why, so it's not
final and there might be a mistake somewhere, though it's
the way it has been and it's about personality; one
persona picking or not picking the UK, and I know why,
and one persona picking or not picking Italian or/and
Italy, and I know why, and I say the same about this
'S'-persona, that that's just how it prefers things, and
it figures to stay so. To see the whole thing with all
personas, one needs to know what one is going to be in
the future, and that I can see only when I am okay
enough, and other than that everything is just changing
and even new variations of personas come and up to go,
though the collection of personas might just be
increasing, but mainly it's about what one can do and be,
what one needs to be, though there are options, and I
need to see the okay first, and then I know what I saw on
the way there (though I am not expecting to become okay
enough in this life) as well as as okay, one has options,
rather than just need to be what (of one or more options)
one has to be. But whatever, the UK still hasn't dropped
away, but it's not about people and nf anymore it seems,
the nf actually more likely picking Italy (though that's
the Italian and flying heart, not the black people heart,
there being different type of hearts, more than these
too), though it was the UK when it first started to
dominate, it being a need, but it's not necessarily a
need anymore with center living and/or the black heart in
balance or/and living in the area of the red heart (the
colder S [EP?] can make it colder and then has the need,
while this other 'S' [IP? Though I am not necessarily
talking about the whole personas but it can be a
combination of connections or/and the past and
present/future] as the unloaded [x-unload] variation
rather than the one coming out of doings and picked
persona, even without the x-unload, with other
connections).
My possibility of a rebirth
in Italy, when dropping dead there, doesn't look like
better than the possibility of a rebirth in France
(and USA) when dropping dead in south England (from
about London to Bristol). With a(n) UK rebirth one
has English as the mother tongue, that looks good
whether one likes it or hates (anything in between
and one might not have enough [of a ] reason to go -
the negative reason being to get rid of the study of
English). The spot for the death in the UK looks
better than the spot in Italy, though one is then
looking like getting a Mediterranean rebirth - if
that's what one is, then one figures to take that.
But for me, my unload is the highest priority for
better life, and as unloaded (x-unloaded), it can be
and is more or less the S, and for it, it's not a
worse deal to be in the UK, the exception being the
ESFP, that would go in Italy as it gets the delights
of the weather and Italian, but I don't figure to
live in that, until I manipulate it and I am not
figuring to do it, for avoiding generally a less
economical pick (inner and outer salaries and jobs
with my language ability and so) and the EP tends to
be more of a flying type and I am not ready for it,
being too loaded, and the ESFP is more like a persona
to be taken when okay and no need to think anything,
but just get forgotten in a good spot and live life
() moment to moment, but I am not there from either
part. For me, the death in the UK looks better, there
not being a better life to be expected for the next
if I would die in Italy, and for this life, the UK
fits better to my priority of recovering, and if not
too late and I won't change my mind about going. (A
possible UK or other as the rebirth might - there are
loses for recovery and so it's likely not good to go
too early - to pay itself back for whatever trouble
and loses I get from/of the move to England in this
life, and I am still to continue my recovery even
when working while in Italy it would make somewhat
less sense as Italian is a part of the delight reason
of moving there and it needs at least some study,
though maybe not all much necessarily but anyway
(the) Italian is a reason and it's mental, while I
don't have that as the delight as English even if I
have to or so do some pronunciation study(.))(.) So,
the in between step as the UK, seems like the best
move, though it looked like rather marginal, but
adding the loaded state and not so likely rebirth in
Italy, it's getting there. The "safety"
factors in the UK look better as economics, global
English, unloading, not too hot, and so it looks and
feels safer, and Italy and Italian one can have as a
hobby forever, it being the order of priority, though
when recovered in some distant future, the
Mediterranean can clearly be the better pick with its
better weather, including warmer seas. But that's in
the future, at the end of an up to a long long
recovery, and maybe one then picks even something
tropical - Mediterranean is not so, while in e.g.
Australia - though small and isolated and needs
special jobs to get (in) there - they have the
Mediterranean and tropical if one wants and maybe the
seas will be less killing in the future, and they
speak e.g. English, that's global. A big city, 7-14M
London, some 3M Rome, maybe one wants that (Rome is
hot up to half of the year), even further away of
them as being more empty, while the options are more
like for beaching (Mediterranean has that like 3-4
months per year) even if that is just a swim per day
or so (even small things are up to great - as long as
the cost is not too high). But it's much to most
about the personality, not only about the loads and
economics and other possible "safety"
factors. But as longs as my personality supports the
UK over Italy, the supporting facts to that are
major, while if the personality changes, it can't
easily up to at all go against its heart and so it
picks what it prefers (though if that's not the final
persona, there are no guarantees and all one might be
left is the possibly worse economical situation and
possible up to major heats and maybe a smaller city
than one at the moment might like, and the language
problems if one doesn't get the delights of it that
much, and lesser unloading perhaps, and other loses,
though maybe some goods too), the facts e.g. in my
case about Italy and the Mediterranean not being that
bad that it couldn't, and only the state of unload
might make it pick otherwise, though it could pick
Genoa straight or through some other city, in case
there are no summer moisture problems and one can
handle its average summer heats, though if one is not
recovering further, that the job even alone (plus
(the) language study) could make, one would be more
or less stuck in one place, with rather weak beaching
possibilities though one might get a dip there even
daily (during some summer months), but of how much
delight that is /is that, is another thing and the
temperatures are lower, no beaching life to mention,
just a somewhat more sunny (and warmer) weather than
in London - where one has the option to live from
Zone2 to Zone6 and beyond, though possibly missing
central life - Bristol (that I liked to compare to
Genoa to get some comparison, while other than the
heats, one might be comparing London to Rome, though
nothing of this is all true and there are other
options in Italy and the UK, and comparing London to
some beach place in the Mediterranean might be more
like the thing to do - though one should know the
Mafia places, at least Sicily and Calabria and
possibly near it, if one is running a business or so
and also the salaries - or the costs being higher
like the hotel, hostel, travel, living costs - might
be cut as mafia gets their share of the profits. In
the UK there seems to be only gangs, with knifes, and
drugs maybe) might not but it's just 0.5M or so, and
one might go up to Manchester and Liverpool for rents
of possibly 370 not central or possibly 515 for
central in 2010, and Bristol might cost some more,
while London Z2 especially here might be 650, and
likely a bit less further, plus the salaries might be
a bit higher (though so might be the metro, train,
bus and travel costs and times be higher), and it
might be the safest spot to die in at, the Bristol
and south England coming second, while Great
Manchester level obviously is not as good for that.
Even if I heal enough for
Italy, the fingers will show loads left and that
still figures to be the priority, and no study of
Italian figures to be on the list. I also might be
picking English as the priority, it being good enough
and global (though possibly too big to find what one
might be looking for but then one might learn at
least a bit of the smaller language groups and make
translations, though it might be too much work. But
it's unlikely I would find up to any information when
it comes to something that's top important to me,
though the reason additionally figures to be that
there more or less isn't any. One might try to limit
the searches to specific countries and areas, if such
functions are there. Personally to me, it shouldn't
matter as I should be in Nirvana, so to say, surfing
the real seas, and anyway, I don't figure need to
know but the fingers - as the main thing that matters
is the knowledge of the loads) and I have enough
places to pick in the future lives even with that.
So, if getting healed enough, the UK seems to be on
the list, though I am not to take anything seriously
as my decisions change every two weeks, but every
time I learn something new and so they do get more
serious time after time, and I am just waiting to see
if something again comes up or down or whatever (it's
about the personality, that still sees enough to
support its likings, though at the same time it comes
with some new facts also, and it - I am not
necessarily doing anything really though I can also
see or seek some new facts or clarity if I have to,
like about English pronunciation - starts to seek
them right after I have made a decision for something
else and against something, it then trying its best
to bust it back as it was) and I change it to Italy.
Whenever I make a decision, it looks like final, just
that it hasn't been so, and in two weeks or so I
figure to have it back as Italy, though it might take
from five minutes to two months. But it rates to find
a way to bust it again as it has done it every time
so far. Even if it would be years "clear,"
it could change again as I had Italy as the aim from
about the second half of 2006 to the end (or 10-11)
of 2009, it being then supported by the ESFP, but
after being made a second and even, to nf then, the
things started to fluctuate and it has been doing
that ever since, and with some more or less new
personalities too as the time has went, and it's a
lot about the personality (that often comes with
likings rather than the opposite), and it needs a
rather major factors (that also have been collecting
as the time has went) to make a decision against its
likings. And it's going to try to bust the
new/improved factors now, and if it succeeds, that it
likely will, it will be Italy again, till new factors
will be found or/and the personality will change
again; then it's again the UK. At some point it will
be finally Finland, it being too late (I didn't get
healed enough - in spite of that being the priority,
the changing keeps happening and new factors popping
up), but there's some years to go to that and this
game figures to continue till then, or stops only for
not being busted for years or the personality staying
as something for years or so. It can have an end as
since this fluctuation started, it was between Italy
and Spain first; Spain being the country and Italy
had the language, and that took maybe six months and
took plenty work too as I needed to collect
information too, but finally I couldn't pick Spanish
that I can't handle, while Italy is Mediterranean
too. And that finally never got busted. I have also
been thinking about the whole planet, before Italy
the non-EU and then the EU and somewhat during the
Italy times also, while now it's only between Italy
and the UK, all other options (for going somewhere in
this life) being eliminated. So, there is a reason to
hope that this too will get into a final decision,
though even if it stays so for years, no guarantee it
won't change again, though it has a good chance that
it will then finally be clear or just stays. Then
there will be no options left, nothing more to think
around here, even the city/cities having been picked
at least for the start, e.g. I will start in London
if I go in the UK as it's just the best to do so for
me, while if it's Italy then it figures to be (the)
cooler Genoa, through other city if I have to, and if
I get still cooler later, there will be other
options, cities I could pick. But I need to get
plenty healed before 50, that I would study enough
Italian (at that late of age it's pretty much not so
smart, and it would be about the personality then,
and why would I pick that personality to give me that
extra work even if it's delight as I have my
priorities to recover and other personalities have
their own delights or something. If I pick that
Italian personality for forever, then I could see it
might pick it) for it to be worth it to take the pack
of Italy, and that needs to get busted before Italy
can become a possibility, and if it gets busted and I
get healed so much (until it busts that somehow) and
will be of the supporting personality (it being
basically final forever then), only then it will be
Italy. But I say it's plenty to do to bust the
recovery factor (it being my life), but as I have
seen, somehow it rates to bust it, though the easy
way for it is to bust it as a possibility for getting
healed enough and so it's still that getting healed
enough it's Italy, getting healed some, it's UK, and
not getting healed, it's Finland. So, I seem to have
achieved nothing here. But many points have been
improved and need to be busted, as as it's now, it
will be the UK and my recovery up to Italy in ten
years even is not a favorite to happen, though It
might pick Italy even now and Be it in Finland and
all the way if that's what it's going to be if not
enough healed. So, nothing big seems to have changed,
but still major fine points have changed, the main
point being perhaps that Italy can't happen as it
needs the study of Italian that I shouldn't do and if
not doing it, a major factor, a reason to go in Italy
is gone. Now, I am just going to wait and see when
that gets busted.
After one hour the situation
is already something like this; all personalities
think it's the most reasonable to think I will not be
recovered to so much that I would have a situation
where I can pick anything. So, the Italian persona
can't bust my recovery factor, that's my life, but
it's ready to give up the language factor up to about
completely if necessary but still (at least try) to
go in Italy, in Genoa. That then actually dropped in
this moment the Italian person based on Italian, and
instead there is the UK 'S' persona with some new
aspects to it, with parts of INTP and parts of Italy
and maybe something else also, but it's close to the
same 'S' that's not interested of Italy nor Italian
nor study of it (nor hobbies and doings) at all, but
with the additional parts, it currently thinks why
not pick Genoa instead as one is not going to do
anything anyway and there not being a difference for
the death at either place and Mediterranean seem
possibly better, and the UK has really never been on
the list anyway, at least not yet. If the recovery
happens enough to go anywhere, then Genoa should be
just as good as the UK, London, and I don't at the
moment really see why I would be in the UK, in
London; what's the point really? I could be anywhere
with a decent weather as long as Italian doesn't
become compulsory for the nationality, that it might,
in case it seems I better drop it (Additionally for
Italy being a very difficult country for me to fit
in, it has bad economics etc., and they always
invents new things, change laws etc., against me,
when I have decided to go there and then I invent a
way to overcome those changes, or the laws change
again, to better, or I change. A lot of work for
nothing, but I suppose some things are just there to
wait to happen and one should think them to do so. In
2011 it seems that to get the permanent residency one
needs basic Italian ability and if that is as it
looks like so for the nationality, I might not be
able to go there even in the long shot case that I
get healed enough. Neither Italy nor my body is
co-operating). But as things are now, the It is at
the moment going in Genoa in case there will be any
going. So, it dropped the language and its delight
and related personality, to still aim to get in
Italy, and things have been getting worse and worse
about Italy during the last year; beach more or less
dropping, other cities more or less dropping as too
hot, economics (unknown from half parts), the body of
the next life, and being less fitting in Italy than
in the UK as far as the look goes, healing having
taken way too longer than expected and actually I was
to go in about 2011 originally, but things changed in
Italy as well as I figured it necessary to recover
first, that also didn't then continue fast enough nor
did I get good peace for it. And then I am supposed
to drop the language even up to all, though that
figures no more possible as a law. The UK must be
really a bad deal if that's better. But that's still
on the level of It-thinking, if it's the better pick
than the UK, like London (up to Bristol) vs. Genoa
(and maybe more later), but initially It feels Genoa
as a warmer and closer place than London that's a bit
colder (and less sunny) and more distant when it
comes to the centre (there might not be that much in
Genoa but it's not distant in the same way perhaps.
Picking e.g. Bristol one can have more or less the
centre, though It is thinking just London), though It
feels London (and the UK) as more safe and in that
way sort of more modern (though it's much all history
and old houses too, in much of the UK), and with one
word as more economic, that also is about the job.
The It is still just thinking and haven't made any
decision yet.
One more hour and it's clear
I am not going to go in Italy without more language
study in the future, and I am not going to go there
without the delight of it either, with a related
personality, that the 'S' isn't. And I do prefer the
better economical situation in the UK. The
possibility that I would get enough delight out of
Italian with the 'S' persona or whatever so,
x-unloaded, is not good, and the possibility that I
would get healed enough to go in Italy, also is
small. And so, though it's still the same that to
Italy in the best case and to the UK in the good
case, and in other cases stay in Finland. But the
possibility of Italian is too small to consider under
this persona (small times small is very small), that
more or less figures to be there at the x-unload,
except in the case of the ESFP. All the expansion
possibilities of the UK death and rebirth and moving
later if one so thinks in the future lives. The
recovery will take time and it will be the priority
and so there can be only Finland and the UK, there
not being any Italy possible because of that, though
it loses the two years of study of Italian - one year
was just making it stronger. But what is lost is
lost, it being about what is the best thing to do
when starting from this point, and it wasn't the only
things I have lost because I dropped to recovery, I
lost many more years, but to get the recovery and the
related personality, I just have to drop all those
years. One part of my journey has been getting it
more and more into my mind and understanding to give
all necessary things to recovery, and I hope I would
have understood that ten years earlier but it wasn't
to be; one can only play the game as one sees it.
The economical situation in
Italy is worse than it's in the UK and France - that's
the spot one in theory picks as Mediterranean or so, but
there is not much and the waters figure not so clean. It
seems that Italy is like 20 years behind in economics
(the north, maybe less). The salaries are lower but the
costs might be relatively higher. The salaries are 30%
lower that means one has much less money after the living
costs are paid. I have seen such level about Milan too
but the average salary in the north of Italy might be
close to what it's in Finland (as an average - there too
like in about any country the lesser places have lower
salaries, much so, and one possibly might make even more
in Italy in cases), so it isn't necessarily that much
lower there (nor at Rome and so) but it hasn't in any way
been made clear and I have seen other information - like
that Milan case - that says otherwise. France is richer
(the south too?) according to the economists and they
have a 2 children average and I don't know - as I haven't
looked - of them having any sort of problems - or they
have immigrants like the UK - including like crime (the
UK - and Spain perhaps - can have more), while it seems
like Italians steal and cheat and can't be trusted and
it's in their nature - mafias, corruption, and everything
being just so so and slow. The flats, do they figure e.g.
silent? One might thing they might not be as material,
and additionally one might think Italian's could be more
noisy. The UK is more modern, but not cheap and it sure
too is old, and it seems (in Finland) the modern possibly
better buildings started after 1990 or later, but not
likely everywhere, just that the knowledge for it seems
to have started about there. But what one is to think?
One would be making a drop in economics going in Italy
(compared to e.g. the UK and France). To go on Italy on
pension, possibly fine from that point (but one needs to
live there; might have problems), but risky from the
point of a rebirth; as a woman in north Africa, and not
so great as a man either, and there is violence and next
to wars even at the moment (in both Egypt and Libya.
Might have a dictator or so. Arabs), and the other side
of the sea Adriatico is poor (and had their wars). The
country is as big as the UK and half or so of the space
seems to be mountains, so they live close each others in
the north, lacking space (not in smaller places anywhere
as it's clear they are all small cities and plenty empty
space around, and some Genoa has the sea not hard to see
and the mountains, though the economics figures somewhat
worse in Genoa - including the buildings and they are so
near each others - and in the not-north and at small
places perhaps though the tourists might make it somewhat
more costly). Rome seems to have up to serious air
pollution (though it's a big place and it's common, but
Italy has major problems with air pollusion [and sea
pollusion and garbage, and with everything it seems].
Living further away from the centre, that anyway figures
to cost up to too much in the big cities, though it still
might be polluted, but e.g. 10+ km of the city centre in
Helsinki and the air is clean for sure, all being more
sensitively experienced, also as the people's heads are
not so many there, though it then at points is up to
painfully too empty - the heart needs something or it
will have more or less pains). The south Italy is poor,
garbage problem (was/is in Naples even), and the roads
might be having lots of holes - possibly one reason the
buses might drive like even 30 km/h at some places all
the way - the traffic death rate etc. might be double or
more and it's not as safe to drive there and one might
better not have a car as the roads too might be too bad
though not necessarily - and small the streets can be
(parking might be up to impossible and no spot to keep
the car either perhaps not near the home either, and
walking when the roads might be full of dog shit, and
using a bike - that figure to get stolen soon - tough the
other way as it's up or down though not when travelling
sideways [one could live there too but it can cost twice
as much], and the streets in theory could be full of
broken glass as they up to never do cleaning there), and
the bigger streets may not be free but cost money as can
the beaches or they are dirty or on poor and small areas.
Italian people seem to buy their drinking water (that's a
work) though they could drink the tap water too, but it
doesn't say much good about it. It's said it's harder to
get a job (and easier in the UK), but I don't see the
logic with it as it has the same needs for jobs as any
other reasonable country has. And even with a marginal
language ability, how could it be any different? But of
course, many jobs need better language ability anywhere.
Maybe they are just slow and messy, like thinking of
using the net and they have everything barely working if
they even ever look into their emails etc. (it seemed
they don't bother answering to them and the phone numbers
might not work, though they might have just been e.g.
cheating deposit money, but that should be all typical
Italy. Things non-working like that and possibly inside
type of work getting is more common and not to everyone.
Some bases for the problems of getting a work figures
true, but much of it might be about other than simple
work and then the higher demands for language ability,
and then things work slow and sloppy if they work at all.
North Italy seems to have just a 5% unemployment, 10%
Rome, 20% south. But what kind of a work one is ready to
do if one doesn't get what one is thinking about in the
shorter long run even (possibly with the simple works one
might get what one gets anywhere else, and one has e.g. a
five year permit to stay and seek, so they too better
find something), and if not improving language ability,
and what if the nationality needs language ability.
Corrupt as a spirit, taxes avoided as a spirit, people
figure to steal and cheat as a rule (some nationalities
that are poor - including Italy - are likely to steal and
cheat in any country, including when renting a flat in
any country, including the UK. That looking like the
reason for their nature). It might be worth it in an
another life, though with the whole world as an option
then and it too being better than it's now, there is much
to think about then too. The pull (to) there is from some
personality types plus the simple logic of the weather
and the language, have formed my liking(s) about it, and
there are major facts for it, and the cost generally is
the economics and in my case still more. Other options
for a better weather are there other than Italy, that do
not have so problems in economics and the system, though
they might have some other problems one way or the other,
and they do not speak Italian; somehow unreal of how a
language can have such a strong pull up to all life. It
seems pretty clear I would go in Italy (the exception
would be being pretty young, having the right profession
- that can be the point for no Australia, no Canada,
leaving only Italy if one wants even just the weather,
but that's about the personality type and doings. I won't
figure to study any or maybe if reborn in the UK - and
then maybe going somewhere else; the UK, Australia,
Canada. Learning both English and Italian figures to take
28 years part time and one gets no rest but gets loaded
instead. One hard reality factor). But in my situation,
it doesn't look like I can go in Italy (or even in the
UK, (to) where I don't want, but it figures to improve
things and at least a step in between) and even if I
could, it doesn't look like worth it without the language
and preferably more years left before (the) death. It
seems, I stay in Finland or try to get in the UK, that
for me being smart in many ways and no need to up to ever
study other languages and one can always move in some
future life, while being reborn outside of the UK, France
is near and if elsewhere because of what I am, it might
be okay then too. It being about a good pick in many
ways; economics, rebirth, possibly body, global language,
no major language problems (in case one needs language)
and in some ways more doings perhaps, e.g. London is big.
But for me, the difference between going in the UK and
staying in Finland is not much, while about Italy it's
about the recovery and Italian and it's about time and
personality, values, realities, the truth.
In about a week I have dropped
the UK again in favor of Fi/It, the reason being Italian
and that for me there isn't enough a point to go in the
UK even if I couldn't go in Italy, as under the It I will
be going in Italy in the next life anyway, as I would
have in this life earlier if I would have been okay. And
the EU is big. I then basically drop English forever.
It's not only about the country and the language but
about the soul, mind, right, wrong, personality.
Economically, a bad pick. Basically, it seems I am
staying in Finland, but with a (multi) selected
personality and its related life. If I could go in the
UK, I about could go in Italy too, and even without the
language from most parts though it loses major point on
comparison to the UK, but that too was dropped, it too
losing major points. While the nationality, remains to be
seen. And being reborn in e.g. Egypt (80M, very poor,
though much of Africa just might try to get even there),
one has some problems ahead to get back in Italy. But I
might drop Italy again, as it's hard to pick the
economics (though just years in this life and in the next
it's like 50 years later from this/that point, and so,
looks good enough, but it's not sure), rebirth (risky),
the language problems (and up to dropping English [for]
forever) and the heats of the summers though just some
three months per year and up to none in Genoa, that
though is limiting in many ways. It's still so much about
the recovery and personality, that it's not yet possible
to weight things based on them, other than keep moving
and wait and see. I just can't know the answer yet,
though the facts have become sharper and sharper, they
still can't solve this problem as it's about time and
personality, neither being clear yet.
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